I miss my grandma... =(

***Last picture of my grandma as she can't even sit her own as in picture after the CNY of 2006..

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I woke up very early this morning, i think maybe due to the schedule of this semester, my internal alarm already back to track, latest by 9am sure wake up..

Suddenly think of my NutriMeta assignment, i haven't get any title yet+lack of 1member for my group, still hunting for the one more member...

Yesterday when i asked Mr. Wong regarding the Cooking Science as the major part of our assignment, i told him that i do not understand on that and which dish to choose as my title.

And he answered me: "You can ask your grandmother on the traditional way during her cooking. As you said your grandma has her own knowledge in making kaya right? Maybe you can ask more details on that."

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Uncle Wong...

My grandma passed away few years ago..

You now really mencungkil my sadness from the deep part of my heart...

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So when this morning i thinking, thinking, and thinking about the title..

Suddenly i miss my grandma so much...

And i can't ever control my tears from dropping...

You know what..

Human will know really appreciate someone when he/she still alive.

I remember when my grandma was alive, she loves to cook those nice nice dishes for us.

We as her grandchildren wondering where she get those secret recipes..

Examples of her trademark dishes: Kaya that smooth as a mirror; salted-stuffed dumplings; steamed 3different types of eggs; asam laksa, curry chicken; etc...

And whenever my grandma call us to go back hometown, am always the one telling my mum i dun want to go, because very boring at my brandparents' home...

After she passed away, i wish to meet her also no more chance now...

I still remember when i was small..

She likes to ask me to separate the different rice for making dumpling...

I asked why must separate them, campur all together also can,lastly also eat all, separate or campur are no different..

She didnt answer me that, just asked me to do what she said..

Until when i shifted from Ipoh to KL, my mum making dumpling by herself, only I know why last time my grandma asked me to do so...

Mum said even small portion of campuran will make the dumpling not good eating quality and appearance..

Other people might not know, but my grandma can taste the difference...

And why must ask the grandchildren to do those work?

Mum said people will only appreciate what they have after hard-work...

From that time i really take my grandma as my IDOL...

Until today, kaya... I can't even find one that can compete with my grandma's one and my mum and aunties, they didn't learn from my grandma when she's here..so now, all of them regret and missed the secret recipe of that...

Dumpling...The same...Can't get the same taste as my grandma's one...

Since so..I rather and long time didn't take kaya and dumplings...

Because whenever i see both of them, i miss her so much...

Grandma...

We really miss you so much..

And human..

Respect and appreciate your grandparent..

Sayang them more more...

Without them, without you today...